After watching photographer Peter McKinnon’s video “We Forget Why We Do It,” I realized I had forgotten the reason why I chose to do illustration. In illustration, or any creative field, it’s easy forget that the reason you started was because it was fun. To get so caught up in getting from point A to B- getting your work seen, finding a specific style to stick to, deciding if a piece is worthy of being posted on social media… the list goes on and on. More importantly, I had forgotten to accept the process and mess that inevitably comes with creating work. Good things take time and a lot of fuck ups, but in an era of social media, where people (seemingly) continue to generate amazing, spellbinding work, the urge to “get on their level” becomes more and more urgent until, ironically, it paralyzes you from getting work done.

The clash with process comes to someone who has decided their chosen field, but what about someone who hasn’t? Or even for someone who decided but is having second thoughts? A question of illustration even the right thing for me to begin with has been gnawing at the back of my mind for some time. Possibly due to the fact that I haven’t produced work that I’ve been happy with in a long time. Maybe that’s a good sign, a high standard that will allow me to push my work further. But it doesn’t feel empowering so much as daunting, an unknown path that I have to go down. Again, this fear (and unwillingness) to be okay with the inevitable, messy process. But does it matter if doing illustration isn’t the right thing to begin with? Process also involves finding what you want to do. The transitions between fields will be frustrating and feel like starting at square one all over again, but that only means your mind is what’s stopping you. Simultaneously reassuring and intimidating, I know. I am feeling it right now.

These musings culminate in this blog, this little space, this playground, that serves as a reminder. It’s not about the endpoint, but about the process of finding what you seek (career, skills, even relationships). It reminds me of James Jean’s old blog name, “Process Recess.” Such a perfect name, a little virtual niche where he posted his art processes. I’m not going to even try to attempt to top that name, but it’s definitely a phrase that accurately defines what this little blip in the digital world will try to achieve.

And in case you haven’t been introduced to James Jean’s mind blowing work yet, here’s a quick taster.

ADRIFT James Jean, 2015

James Jean, 2015